these days

     i hate days like this. i'm so sluggish. i can't bring myself to do anything. i miss how i felt in undergrad. i don't remember being this tired back then, or having so little desire to do the work i need to do for school. i should have more desire now that i'm in grad school learning how to do what i want to do. and i had that energy at first. i hit the ground running. but now i feel like i'm barely keeping up.
     i know that the symptoms for ADHD include this feeling of not being able to start the work and get going. but i never had it so bad before. when i'm under a lot of stress like during a test my ADHD and reading disorder can get really bad. sometimes i have to read the same sentence over 5 times. but can sustained levels of stress that have been caused by just being in grad school be the cause of these other symptoms? can it be the cause of why i lack the energy to do work i would have been happy to do 2 years ago?
     i was hoping to see my psychiatrist this summer to talk about my options as far as medicine for days like this. but of course i waited too long and now she is on break till august something, which is after summer school is over. and summer school is such a short and intense period. 3 classes in 5 weeks. doesn't seem right. before the end of every school day i have been having these really bad tension headaches. i come home and feel so shitty i can't bring myself to do all the work i need to do. next week is our third week and we already have midterms. that's just crazy to me.
     i know that i could probably decrease some of this crappy feeling by eating better and exercising regularly and blah, blah, blah. but i feel too shitty to start. i don't have the energy to cook some amazing and healthy meal. i don't have the energy to exercise and it's so damn  hot in my apartment during the day that it probably isn't wise anyways. and somedays, like today, i barely have the energy to get out of bed. ugh, i hate these days.